The 4th quarter of 2014

Wow... It's been over a month since I've blogged. I started one that I was suppose to post right before Thanksgiving. Here it is...Sometimes I wake up extremely early especially on weekends and I wonder, what should I be doing with my time right now? I continue to lie in bed, scrolling through Instagram or Twitter. Is there anything that needs to be cleaned? Should I do a load of laundry right now? No, I don't quite feel like doing all that so I'll continue to just rest and wonder. When I finally focus on in what could really add value to this time, it's no short of looking at one of my Bible devotional apps and thinking about whatever the theme of the day or week is. Well this Sunday morning I've done just that and various devotion from the Shereadstruth.com Instagram page start to tug at my heart. It's the Thanksgiving season so many devotions are encompasses around that. Wow...I've got to pause and think for a moment that in the midst of all I've been dealing with lately I still have a reason to be thankful. In fact, it would be wrong for me not to be. God's amazing, saving grace has kept me. I can remember other rough moments in my life and who was instrumental in helping me through those times. Tears of joy cover my face as I recall those special God-sent individuals to mind. I will certainly reach out and tag them to this blog.

Now back to today... Right before Christmas I am thinking about family, especially my dad. A blog is needed. Gotta get some things off my chest before the year ends, so in advance thanks for reading. Being a Soldier, going through some tough things lately, things I never imagined to be in, I need my family right now. I miss my daddy though. That same stress I was feeling a month ago, yeah it's still going on but so am I. My situations don't define me, they fine tune me. I'm being made the better because of it. And although I would love for the nonsense to end with this year some of it may linger on but my perspective will be new. This too shall pass, I will make it through and the blessing on the other side, the testimony after this test, God's glory will be revealed in my life! For the moment my smile may not be all the way up but it won't completely fade. I'm learning to understand these seasons of my life and everyone that comes along isn't necessarily meant to stay. One lesson learned this year is that my plans, what I thought may occur, even things set in motion, they may not really be the end all be all. My only expectations nowadays is that whatever The Lord allows that's what it is and I'll be alright with it. I'm totally letting go, trusting Him, allowing Him to lead without any expectations except to receive His best for my life. So in closing, as I prepare to share time with family, I'll reflect on my year. Learn from it, grow from it and look forward to blessings in the New Year to come. The only plans I'll make will be to seek Him even the more, trust His plan and process, He's got this. 

God bless, Merry Christmas and a prosperous New Year.

-Joi